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Sunday, October 25, 2015

AAUW : Book 1 : Chapter LIX : Darwinia Myopica : Trashing the Darwinian world ...



Chapter LIX
Darwinia Myopica    : Schezophrenic dream zone  



Annie was in dream zone , she was told poor Darwin may have been wrong . She was just returning after a lecture session on ‘House Lizards’ @ Conference hosted and sponsored by The Nature Magazine … “ house lizards follow a culture that’s primarily influenced and lead by their staple food- insects and pests – and that preference seems to have evolved from a deeply devastating ‘existential crisis’ Annie’s dream dreamt on … ‘ she was in this old balcony on the 3rd floor of an old, ancestral house, built by brick, mortar and teak wood ( the floors,  the ceiling , the pillars , the furniture et al were all classy polished wood ) the visual dream had just the right kinda light ( slightly golden ) , electricity was around but it old tungsten ensconced inside a whitish ceramic lamp shade… even the electric holders looked they belonged an era of her childhood… “ the lizards are gracious animals , while all lizards have to survive on pests they are extremely generous and accommodative esp in situations where the supply of pests are limited … in a video Annie showed there were 3 lizards… one that looked like a male, fairly large , the second one sleek and slim but yet fairly large, and then a third that was small and tiny yet very active… the big ones were initially the epitome of calm the slim one once in a while twirled her tail while watching the bigger male … all of them were watching out for a pest to land anywhere that they could go and stick their tongues out and have a quick meal … as Annie continued to run the video the conference attendees noticed that the moment a “pest appeared” the first to rush to the pest were the two big lizards ( all 3 were located almost in a right angled triangular space facing each other from a few feet apart )  and then suddenly the slimmer one stopped and allowed the fatter one to gobble the pest … the video clearly showed that the sacrifice was not out of fear but out of sheer ‘deference’ … and the best part was the video capturing the ‘smallest among them all moving out gracefully ‘ …  the whole video established that ‘lizards were partriarchical … and they were capable of maintaining a hierarchy and a culture… Annie’s dream intensified itself… she was now on a railing somewhere on Brigade road, Bangalore …. Smoking pot and watching people … she was told by her dream that to say “ all humans evolved from ‘man the monkey’ was beginning to sound archaic, suddenly her dream world started throwing faces some looked like birds, some others looked like leopards, a few looked like elephants and to Annie’s surprise and shock some faces were very familiar – so she started giving each one of them a ‘nom de plume’ ome became a deer, another became a hippo, one more became a Giraffe …it went on … she reminded herself she was dreaming …but yet the sequence continued … la Noah’s ark with Darwin churning a new alchemy of human evolution … monkey alone wasn’t the one to walk straight up … it was actually a set of big birds … real big birds … Annie was seen screaming …

The nurses in the hospital rushed as Dannie watched , Helplessly.



Friday, October 23, 2015

Love , Wreck and Philosphy : Annie and the Underworld , Chapter LXVIII


Love , Wreck and Philosphy : Annie and the Underworld , Chapter LXVIII 

Annie and Rossi were at it again, this time the argument was about the idea of evil and its coexistence . The topic swirled from Christian theosophy, various world religions, God and Plato.

Names of Philosophers flew from each others arguments, they were thrown at each other like they were sharp, ninja weapons with an objective to severely hurt the other person - without the intention of killing each other – Nietzsche, Husserl, Hume, Hegel , Kant, Marx, Freud, Jung all of them emerged and disappeared, the question or the opposing views between the two was the very definition of Evil – to Rossi , a free thinker with partial leftist leanings , Evil simply did not exist, as evil was popularly defined and thought, to Annie it was meaningless to redefine evil, to her evil remained an horrific human scourge, a disease, that required civilised society to step forward,  identify every possible strategic means to eradicate and Annie wasn’t convinced about any of the current global efforts, in fact she condemned almost all those efforts too ! For her the deeper understanding of Evil, its psychological aspects, its deepest motivations and triggers,  in all its  dimensions and manifestations in the Human society was an essential search for ‘truth’ as a contemporary Philosopher.

For Annie , ideas of Freedom, Liberty, Free Will were meaningless – Annie felt that evil was all pervasive in her words large parts of human society were overtly, covertly or subtly suppressed and governed by Evil. For rossi it was human naivety basically, the differing views between the two was wafer thin, but yet when they argued it became a confrontation of two aggressive titans, rossi ridiculed the mind that continued to view ‘Evil’ as a stereotype of human behaviour rather than view it as an archetype, so for rossi, the problem was not the actors of evil acts or the actors of evil thoughts it was basically the very perception, for Annie it was a waste of time redefining – for her it was the process of evolution and its sublimation that mattered .

Annie said : Fuck the definitions , the stereotypes etc etc Rossi just let us talk about Philosophy taking up a leadership role, to help mankind, identify means to sublimate and heal evil.

Rossi retorted : Stop being stupid and ideologically naïve, how the fuck do you expect the world of Philosophy to deliver any concrete progress on ‘Evil’ while keeping ‘evil’ predefined ? as ‘evil’ ? absolute rubbish !

Annie ( Livid ) : Who do you think you are Robinson Crusoe ? the only man alive on an island ? happily sodomising his man Friday ? and then arguing with his imaginary god to redefine sodomy ? Sodomy is sodomy , enough thinkers have debated it, defined it and accepted it as a deviant behaviour and then comes one Rossi questioning a millennium of human thought … oh ! fuck you Rossi … fuck you … don’t give me that crap …

Rossi : Well, fuck you too Annie , and fuck all your fucking philosophers , who, like you … are stuck in the claustrophobic world of archaic thought and rigid manuscripts , if you ask me that seems like the very definition of the problem facing contemporary philosophy – you think there’s nothing more to define – you are slaves of the thought that ‘nothing true is new, nothing new is true’ ! You morons have completely twisted the very basis of the Socratic aphorism , twisted it beyond redemption – What Socrates really meant was ‘ You know Nothing’ as a premise to start a dialectic ? Did he not say …

Annie ( interrupting Rossi ) : Question everything ?

Rossi : No , doubt about ‘reality’ , that what we think is reality is probably “twice” removed ?? that this chair before it was crafted into this chair was probably a different chair that the carpenter conceived and the whole ‘conception’ cold have doubtful origins, let’s talk about that …   

Annie : there goes Mr. Complexity ! people like you specialise in complicating ideas, you mystify  what’s has been already demystified long back, what has been simplified over several thousand years of human intellectual progress ( Annie, delivered this part with a huge amount of contempt and ridicule knowing fully well that that would surely get Rossi’s goat, get him hopping mad because the tone questioned Rossi’s knowledge and intelligence while simultaneously hinting and touching upon several other historical events registered in the minds of two )    

Rossi [ reacting ] : Annie’s provocation had its desired effect , rossi stood up in controlled rage while simultaneously throwing a book he was reading across the room, the book just flew like it was a captured bird being thrown out, he pushed his chair hard [ the chair turned turtle with a thud ] and all his actions were pointing towards a finale that he was about to stage a walk out …

Annie : ( Wasn’t letting go of Rossi so easily … ) “I knew you did not have all that’s required to complete your argument and your best response would be to walk out” – she was speaking to Rossi with him facing her back , Annie knew exactly what was happening , she knew everything that Rossi was doing even if she wasn’t facing him ) 

Rossi Responded , his tone was already loud but now it was even more louder  “ I would rather walk out than indulge in this verbal sling match that seems more oriented towards personal attacks and vilification” Annie responded “ …truth is a bitter pill to swallow” Rossi spat back “ remember that statement can swing on both sides” now it was clear Rossi too had decided to stoop he too used the insinuation weapon and soon all the intellectual dust and storm created by two people confronting each other’s intellectual polarity was getting mixed up, in a murky sewage drain and thickening, settling down to an element resembling something more darker, uglier “ Annie turned around, anger clearly pounding out and hissed ‘what do you mean ?? what are you insinuating ? you cheap fucking sonofabitch? What tricks are you using to win your argument ? you want to win this argument by suggesting ‘I’m a whore ? ‘ Rossi responded with equal anger  ‘Yes, you are one, you are such a bitch !! Rossi uttered the last word placing a huge amount of stress on even the least stressed syllables ’                      
  
             
As often their argument could go for days or even months , this one was now about 3 months and yet no signs of showing any kind of slowing down – Annie and Rossi , 2 intelligent, evolved individuals , each had access to a certain kind power and influence - through their wide, global network of people who admired them - they were mutually concerned about the existence of evil in society, committed to go out there and put all the required efforts to try give their all to diagnose an intensely emotional global problem that was currently the most debated among almost every contemporary student and scholar of Philosophy – but, alas, it looked like the two were themselves victims of a mind that permitted and provided all fertility and nutrition required for the growth of that very same sense – evil .


Their feelings for each other , the emotional space they shared for each other, was beginning to show an intensity and intention that of two minds perpetuating evil than diagnosing it.                  

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Q

Socrates said question
everything

Aristophane said
ridicule everything

Plato  said
stay cynical

Aristotle said
stay inquisitive

My mind
said

don't be infatuated

if


laugh was known as cry
cry was known as
not laugh

if

I was known as
not you
and you were known as
that
other someone

If

life was known as death
and death was known as
just the absence of
life

if

root was the tree
and the tree was just
a manifestation
of the root

then earth would be
sky
sky would be earth

if
you will be me

yet
I'll not be you

Sriram
Dedication : X0

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

identity is a deterrence




Identity thru deterrence
Vs
Identity thru
Inference

Insecurity feeds
Deterrence

Stop
Don’t
No

Are the traffic signals

Try a
Cage
Your own
Intellectual cage
And prance
Chant

Stop
Don’t
No

kakautuewoujwqadskc ( radio break , cacophony ) 

Inference too
starts
insecure

uses it

As an existential
inspiration

Questions of
Success and Failure
has to be
first
crushed
crushed

then you
see
So what ?
Why not ?
What if ?

Plan B
revealed
the
the eye
of the fish 

Un grilled 
 
Sriram
Dedication : 1

Monday, October 12, 2015

That end : that forgotten anthology

Those days
every thing was ferried

even a motor vehicle
worked
like a ferry

It was just like the
river water boat

Goats, Cows
People

Vegetables, fruits
flowers

All travelled

in one
heap

Some privileged 
managed
sitting
chairs

Others
just
squatted

Only the
privileged smoked

But,
brahmins
held
smoking
as an immoral
right


two were a married
couple
one coy
the other
stoic

The coy one
wasn't coy after all
she knew
her father owned
the Chevrolet

She also knew
her family owned
Dodge
was just
behind

All classy
polished teak wood
body
steel iron wheels
black rubber tyres
with brass plates
on the bonnet

Alas they were
all black
otherwise 

Unlike her own
smooth, brown skin

She had big eyes
accentuated by
carbon wax
that she wore
thick
making her look
more mature
than her real age

her thin hands
unsucked lips
matchstick like
legs

gave away
the truth

she was just a
pre teen
child

It was her wedding
party
travelling
to her
new found man's
old village


Just beneath
the Nelliyambathi
mountian
range 

Both the vans
were well
prepared

the booty
had
the crank shaft
20" jute ropes
big, wide
sheets
pulleys
and hooks


tools
to pull
the Dodge
the Chevrolet
from muddy
tropical roads

besides
Spare Exide
batteries
Bosch plugs
Big Gasoline
cans
and all






She came from
a family
that was inspiration
to many

People treated
her father
with the greatest
of reverence

Her forehead
was used
to being
addressed
as the daughter
of the 
the respected
one

But they did
have their fall
they did
have their
struggles

Just outside
their
family mansion
as they roamed
half naked 


Soon
she recovered
becoz
she even was
witness, when
a few family
elephants
assembled

all tusks
and ivory

bedecked
with plated
gold
on their foreheads

The mahouts
her family
mahouts 
barked

and the elephants
responded
with full
throttle

when they
launched
Dunlop & Goodyear
tyres
just a few years
before her
marriage 

Back in the
50's


She loved it
when it rained
her family jalopy
braved it all

It could get
heavy
real heavy

That's when the
hood used
to simply give up

Then
It was shrieks
all around

The driver
swerved
with the steering
hating nature
that tested
his supreme
driving skill

His hat
moustache
and his
cotton coat
too
surrendered
to the
monsoon
rage

With no
shelter around
He just had to
stop
flash floods
that could wash them
all away
were his worst fears

As he
watched
water
gushing
wind blowing
thunder
thundering
light, sound
thunder 

Half closed eyes
braving the monsoon
rage 

She watched
as Umbrellas
flew

Her expensive
wedding silk
was drenched

Her stoic
companion
now her husband

kept looking at her
but couldn't
speak much
his silken
wardrobe
milk white
skin
all
looked
wet and
emaciated
 
The wind
the rain
was howling

And people from the
village
who knew
them
from their
marriage

Smiled
from a distance

She sensed
her
man
didn't like it

one bit

As his family
and kin
cursed

an omen
she would
come to dread

the dread
of an
ancient Indian
bride

Sriram 

Reminiscence : 1 


 


Sunday, October 11, 2015

Mind walk


when the mind's
walking

It doesn't rest

stop the mind
stop the mid 


I know
i swear

stop the mind
stop the mind

poor bethals
they
will

stop the mind
stop the mind
 
I will
I'm

death of thought
triggers
idea of life

stop the mind
stop the mind

rest, rest, rest

Someone thumped
the desk remained
stoic
as wood

why ?
Why should the mind
stop walking ?

stop the mind
stop the mind

Who says
stop the
mind ?

stop the mind
stop the mind

Rest ?
arrest ?
slow ?
Cut ?

cut the mind
cut the mind


Control ?

control

Control ?
Whom ?
What ? 

Create

Don't murder

Take a walk 


Sriram
Dedication : 3



Retrospection : completed

Listen :
past / is the only
thing / alive

the only thing : real

they say
or said :
build a house
and you'll
know

manage a
marriage
and you'll
know

Its all that

in the past
i lived
u lived

i built
u did
but yet :
u did not

I built concrete
and you said 
You speak
poetry?
smirk

Someone was asking
where art God ?
Its a long story

Stop trying
to cut it short

the clock
is ticking

Sriram
dedication : 2




 


Where deviance is abnormal

I wish \ went
lament ;
So I asked my mom :
asked my wife :
my son :
neighbors were spared  :
sought some friends \
someone said
google
then I heard


CLICK
the switch
and a crimson light bulb
turned itself on
in low voltage
turned orange, red
magenta

wobbly bulb
blew its fuse
and laughed and laughed and laughed
while continuously
washing its hands
and then
gargling \ loud
turned
hollow eyes
open
the apartment became
the forest
labyrinthine
3 bedrooms
and a hall
kitchen couldn't
cook
anything further

Keep washing
Hands need
washing

So mind
will remain
clean 

Sriram
a dedication