Rossie allowed his mind to continue to reminisce his thoughts about Annie , while wondering where on earth he was , recollecting that he was somewhere in Nagaland , in the extreme Northeastern part of the Indian sub continent , once his location became clear his mind switched back to his reminiscence about Annie, here was a woman - he thought - and then rephrased his mental query' what the fuck ? Is wrong with her ? With that inner question his mind seemed suddenly going chaotic, as a series of differing inner voices questioned each other debating and countering - who are we to term her decisions , wrong ? While another parallel inner voice seemed to say of course ! with a simultaneous mental repartee countering , " she's now been through 3-4 abusive living relationships, 4 failed marriages, several children across different parts of the world , result of her marriage and other relations across America, Africa, UK, India - and now She' s become the toast of life inside , Sonagachi, Kolkatta !
Rossie's mind continued its inner debate, So ? Asked one more inner voice, of course said another, what the fuck? repeated yet another and Rossie finally decided to step in control , stop you fuckers, Stop !!! As if all the inner voices floating inside his own mind were personalities of an outside society - he mentally responded with a voice full of aggression and anger " I was married to her too , I too have children, now living in Argentina , born out of my marriage with Annie, She was love personified but what screwed our relations was my inability to give her, her freedom - Annie is a free bird , ferociously free and yet kind and patient ... She's capable of taking a huge amount of abuse - verbal, physical, mental, psychological etc - but what she just can't endure is anyone who tries to force her into a certain kind of cultural bracket or a certain kind of social norm or anything that forces her to behave unnatural to her own Inner self , her own free self.
She was proud to be a woman with a free mind and she made that aspect very clear before saying Yes to any marriage.
Rossie's mind continued its inner debate, So ? Asked one more inner voice, of course said another, what the fuck? repeated yet another and Rossie finally decided to step in control , stop you fuckers, Stop !!! As if all the inner voices floating inside his own mind were personalities of an outside society - he mentally responded with a voice full of aggression and anger " I was married to her too , I too have children, now living in Argentina , born out of my marriage with Annie, She was love personified but what screwed our relations was my inability to give her, her freedom - Annie is a free bird , ferociously free and yet kind and patient ... She's capable of taking a huge amount of abuse - verbal, physical, mental, psychological etc - but what she just can't endure is anyone who tries to force her into a certain kind of cultural bracket or a certain kind of social norm or anything that forces her to behave unnatural to her own Inner self , her own free self.
She was proud to be a woman with a free mind and she made that aspect very clear before saying Yes to any marriage.
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