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Friday, July 19, 2013

XXXXII Chimera , so what do you see ? do you see ?




Its not genetic really, when men are alone, driving, listening to music. 

And then they see women, first, and then they see men, children, old hags, beggars, discards, rich, poor, happy - hues and shapes - walking on the pavement, looking at windows, talking on the phone, smiling, shouting, fighting, running, standing, waiting, looking - oh so there's a pro, how good? 

Sorry not my type. 

Surrounded by an ant factory of automobiles, spewing smoke, honking their butts out. 

Nor is it politics.

Daniel suddenly remembered the woman on the other side of his sit out , at home,  who was looking at him when he was playing on his guitar and then vanished, by the time he took Annie’s call.

The chimera. The Agora.

She could have stayed back just a wee bit longer, he was looking forward to her, as an appreciative audience.

She was wearing a short underpants, dark blue denim, was wearing a panty bra and nothing else on top, her hair was tied on a pony.  She was white. She looked young. 18 at the most. Her hair was blond.

Daniel shook his head and smiled as the traffic snailed on, he was still somewhere on 14th Avenue, Danny smiled again, its primordial, or even beyond , it is . 

Especially at the great Longacre Square. 

His regular briefing in New York usually took place on the 30th Floor office , of Reuters’ landmark # 3 Times Square building, overlooking Broadway and The Central Park on the North, but today Hoffman, his Editor–in- Chief,  suggested they meet on the 16th, at the Cafeteria, not the most pleasant place ( considered the most wretched cafeteria in New York that even had the NYCHD warning several times for cockroaches), but for Daniel it did not matter ‘coz anyways it would just be for an hour or so. And his actual role at Reuters put him through worse.     

And so Daniel’s mind went on and on.Sometimes listening to music, sometimes talking to him, sometimes watching. Sometimes simply driving. 

Smiling, tapping, shaking.

Driving. 

Thinking.  Moving. 

Yet. Pausing. 

Hey? 

Mind, the mind, our mind.

Will it ever stop working? 

will it ever stop talking? 

Will it ever ? 

as long as it talks you’re alive, when it stops you’re dead? 

Not really. Its much more complex. 

As long it talks and you don’t

You are

A thinker.

As long as it talks

And you talk

You are

Normal.

As long as it talks

But you talk

Different

You are

Abnormal.

As long as it talks

And you don’t know what is its talk

You

Are

Insane.  

You’re .

No sirens please. 

Suddenly Daniel saw some open road space for a change and he started speeding, he noticed another car, in front, doing the same. 

It was somewhere about Duffy Square .

All of a sudden, the open space widened,  it just turned out that the two cars, got caught in an impromptu race . 

He sped them out like they were kids. 

Just When they were about to turn into the 57th Street from the Joe Di Maggio, the boys whom Dan was chasing left, Dan thought

Hey!

C'mon, let's do some more !

And stopped.'

He saw the car that had turned left had also stopped. 


He traversed , back, for he had driven ahead, thinking he would at least shake hands with the kids of the other car, they had managed to race for about 10 minutes real fast and with no cops monitoring. 

It was a rare joy inside New York.  

Dan, drove and parked the car just behind the other waiting car. 

He saw about 6-8 kids sitting inside. He walked forward with a beam of a smile, with his hand stretched. The guy who was driving the other vehicle, seemed white, also gave a smile and stretched his hand. 

The time Daniel reached the drivers' side.'He saw an avalanche of people from inside the car attack him. They were beating him from all sides, kicking, punching, butting, suddenly one of them brought a baseball bat and started bashing, they were young, drunk, A mix of Black, Brown and White.

Dan saw a cop walking forward, and then wait and watch. he was shocked. He gestured to the cop and maneuvered near him while defending himself from a drunk mob of 8, and asked for hrlp. 

The cop simply watched. Impassive. By then the 8 bevdas also rounded the cop telling the cop how Danny provoked for a race and how he had comem back ( from a road ahead ) and he was the one who had started the whole thing. 

The cop simply watched. 

Daniel knew the cop wasn't gonna be any help, he started running back to his car, even while the 8 member mob chased him, he ran a bit defended a bit, kept a few stones that were lying around handy , punched some of the guys with the stones, quickly opened his car door , got in and locked the door from inside, the boys chasing were not that easily coyed, they got hold of the stones he had used and banged at his glass, the Silverado's synthetic glass cracked but did not break, he lunged his car forward in a bit to get out. 

Daniel had banged the car in front.

The rare bumper flew out. Half way. and then hung. Midway. Dan's car did have much of a damage, it just had sime paint remived off its own front bumper. And its right side light assembly broke.   

New York , was alive. And Kicking. 

The cop had to reach them now, he stretched his book. Asked for ID's and etc., 

Daniel and the boys withdrew. Took the cop aside and aplogised. 

All of them gave the cop souvenirs of their own. The cop waqs reluctant, but later consented.

Before long. They were all off, shaking hands and bidding goodbyes. 

Danny was bleeding from his eye. But he still made it to # 3 , Times Square. 

Hoffman called for first aid. And told Danny - 

His cover story had to start at London. 

Before moving to Bolivia. 


Wednesday, July 17, 2013

thesocratespot: XXXXI Plotting the route map

thesocratespot: XXXXI Plotting the route map: Daniel was on his way to the # 3 Times Square, the iconic, 32 floors, New York office of Thomson Reuters. For him the drive from his Breez...

XXXXI Plotting the route map


Daniel was on his way to the # 3 Times Square, the iconic, 32 floors, New York office of Thomson Reuters. For him the drive from his Breezy Point neighbourhood circumventing the Upper River Hudson side, tracing out the Queens and inner Brooklyn towards lower Manhattan was like a Roosevelt –Marcy trail, starting with the backdrop of the Adirondack, ending almost near the harbour, tracing the intercourse of the mountain river and the Ocean right through its sleek estuary, it took him through a road trip that read like the history of modern New York, taking him across all the 3 bridges, as a choice, he could miss them if he was in a hurry, but he never really was.

He completely enjoyed driving his Silverado through the long and winding trail that took him at times over two hours when the traffic was at its peak. For him it was all about he, himself, the car, the car stereo and soaking in the experience of New York. It never really mattered that he had to drive like a migrant peasant across the 5 boroughs.

Henry Hudson, Dutch East India Company. On a drive.   

Many a times if he found the traffic too heavy, he would park by at any of the closest available private parking lots and take off on his unique 24 Shimano gear, bamboo bicycle, that he had imported from China, and which he always carried as a permanent part of his station wagon.  

In fact the rare portion of his SW was an extension of a multiple utility garage of sorts, it had all sorts of things, a Bamboo bicycle, a sleek, portable, Segway scooter, an inflatable 4 Seater Canoe with short oars, a surf board, a skateboard, a tent, a barbecue, gadgets for climbing and survival kits.  

His passion for the outdoors was tremendous. Daniel often shipped his Car along during his long tours.    

The radio jockey was belching out stuff that kept him marooned to his thoughts. It was Coldplay number streaming as he cruised the Atlantic Expressway His conversation with Annie and the prospect of visiting London lingered at the back of his mind.  

New York was so much like Bombay. Where Daniel had started his early adult life. As a teen, Sarsu was by then a Journalist with the Asian Age and a vociferous writer, after a bitter separation from Mohan, and closer to Arvind. Who was by then a Member of Parliament.

The radio jockey sneaked in with a Karen Carpenter number, Jambalaya, She was hinting that She gotta go down the bayou, Daniel simply hummed along.
 


Tuesday, July 16, 2013

thesocratespot: XXXX London Calling

thesocratespot: XXXX London Calling: Daniel, took Annie’s call on his mobile, which was located above his sleek , compact 'Bechstein' Piano he had recently bought ...

XXXX London Calling




Daniel, took Annie’s call on his mobile, which was located above his sleek , compact 'Bechstein' Piano he had recently bought from a friend, that was now positioned as a masterpiece in the hall that was his living space, which had the sea on one side and the New York City traffic on the other side.

As he shouted his 

'Hello' 'Annie' ? with a decibel level that was required to be heard above the New York din. 

Annie, who was in London shouted back ' Hey , Stop Shouting into the phone, my ears are splitting'  

They were soon having a normal conversation as Danny walked back to his Sit out area, hearing out Annie talking and giving him a ‘heads up’ about her London landing. 

He observed that the Woman on the other far side of his apartment ‘Ocean Promenade’ who was until a while ago looking at him playing his guitar and singing, was not around anymore.

As he stepped onto the wide Greek architecture balcony of his New York home, his clothes once again started flapping, it was late afternoon in New York, and he knew it was quite early in  London.

Going by the sound of Annie - the time of her call, her energy etc., - Daniel guessed Annie was probably just out of a party and she wanted to catch up.

Annie was excited. And She was talking . The need to ask whether She was alright was just not required. She just was.

Feeling good. Feeling great.

Apparently the presentation at the T.S. Elliot Memorial Hall, at Merton College, Oxford University, went off famously. In fact gave her a surprise by inviting her over on the dais and allowing her to co-present.

She even took the Q & A.

And She was taking and answering questions from the Rushdie’s, the Chomsky’s, the students, the press and soon became a small celebrity.

She loved it. Then.  

Later at the post Conference Dinner ball, She had all of them extending courtesies.  She met Pamuk, met Harry Frankfurt and several more. 

She had stepped out sometime back, many of the ‘great contemporary thinkers were still drinking and toasting and debating’.

She was back at her Hilton room.

Daniel hard all of that and then suddenly became alert .

Annie was saying

Dan, just found out through Annie that there’s this Andrew Lloyd Webber’s apprentice, staging a musical on Shelley’s Prometheus Unbound at London’s Royal Albert Hall and She wanted him to join in.

Dan had no words to speak at first – a mixture of envy, jealousy and then later superiority of his own idea, criss-crossed his mind in a flash.

Danny was saying : But Annie, I’m supposed to be off to Bolivia, in the next few days.

Annie was not the one to let go ‘coz she knew the subject was pretty close to Danny, She said

Listen Dan , C’mon! ? You don’t get to see ‘Prometheus Unbound’ everyday ? will ya? C’mon!? We’re talkin about ‘Prometheus Unbound’ ok? Do you get that? a musical ! and in London?

Annie was on alcohol for sure, but Danny was already a sucker to the topic that she was alluding to, and so it did not take too much Annie talk for Danny to come to a decision.

Dan’s defence was getting weak.

He replied ‘Ok, Annie, maybe I’ll book my tickets such that I meet you at London, we’ll see this musical and then I’ll move on to Bolivia , so that I don’t displease my bosses at Reuters.          

Annie gave an excited ‘hiss’ and said ok ‘ Mr. Mettuguda’ come on over. I’ll pick you up from the airport.

Page me your itinerary.

In the background, the seagulls were still shrieking. In New York.

In London.

It was quiet.

Except for the Ghost like lights that hung around, the London skyline,  just so that the city remained – global.


Annie finally wished G'nite and hung up.

Dan washed up , changed over, took the elevator, started his Chevy and drove down to his office.

Reuters.

New York.

thesocratespot: XXXIX The big, bad, rodents drink

thesocratespot: XXXIX The big, bad, rodents drink: James Mohandas Jesudasan. S/O Cherian Thomas Mohandas Jesudasan ( Bsc.) Sr. Chief of Railway Control Room, Railway Divisiona...

XXXIX The big, bad, rodents drink



James Mohandas Jesudasan.

S/O Cherian Thomas Mohandas Jesudasan ( Bsc.)

Sr. Chief of Railway Control Room,

Railway Divisional Office,

Southern Railway

House  1/289, Hemambika Nagar,

Railway Colony,

Olavakkod. Palakkad.

Pin Code : 678001.

Mohan was drunk. He had just split with his friends after a round that he had sponsored. After a tea round at Skylab. And some calming down. And some cigarettes. 

They had Old Monk rum, first, then they found it wasn’t enough and then went in for a round of Peter Scot, finally for a choice between Kalyani Beer , Khajuraho , Haywards 5000 and KO.  And when they found that even that had not settled their appetite they then settled down with Godamba outside the bar.

Until by about 11.40pm. Finally they split. Each moving on their own    

Mohan, despite the alcohol intake, was managing it well. Only people coming very close would have found he was piss drunk. He wasn’t yet measuring the street. Horizontally. He could walk straight, but his mind was -

Fucked.

He was thinking and cursing the apathetic Indian and their complete lack of civic sense. Mohan cursed loud – Fucking country, had No real Citizens. All were nomads. No one cared.

No one.  

He was thinking about the incident of drunken mob fury in front of Skylab, this evening.  

And suddenly a whole lot of past emotional wounds were spurting venom. Especially when he analysed the necessity of becoming Urban and Civilised and the complete lack of such an idea in India.

Then.

He knew it better ‘coz he himself had a circle who were all educated, aspiring, coming from “decent” family background { a word most commonly used in India to suggest a very docile, submissive, middle class family} .

But there was a problem. A huge problem.   

Almost all of them were people who hardly knew any sense of the word ‘Urbanism.

Mohan knew of a friend who was working in the Dept. of Urban Planning with absolutely no knowledge of anything called ‘Urban Planning or Aesthetics or Architecture or History or even anything about basic ‘Amenities’ and this friend of his has confessed even his super superior IAS officer, to whom he reported, who was the head of the Dept. of Urban Planning, knew any such thing.

Mohan, crunched his teeth. As he headed towards his home. Walking alone.

Arvind, who usually accompanied him during these walk back, had left today with some other friends.  

 Mohan’s mind continued its voicing its frustration.

For that matter, no One in India understood Democracy.

No one really had any understanding of the word ‘Democracy’, ‘Fundamental rights’ and so on  – in fact the failure of India or even most Indian cities, either Politically or in terms of the theory of ‘Self Governance’ – innate and critical for all Democracies to succeed - to adapt and evolve their limitations, their plundering or their corruption is all a fact with roots in India’s unshapely population ‘exodus’ from a rural hopelessness to a bigger urban hopelessness. The official Village Officer or a Town planner or a Water Works Department Inspector or a Inspector general of Police or a Constable or even an Officer of the Indian Railways or the local MLA / MP – they all hailed from a deep rural mindset.

India of the seventies and eighties was imploding with everything inhuman, ‘people’ they came cheap, generated virtually in millions ( by the second ) by a juggernaut of sexually super prolific , almost uncontrollably prolific, moronic men and women who were cloning out equally brainless babies by the millions, the irony of the situation was that the socially well to do were producing less children and it was the utterly poor ‘jobless, idle class’ who were producing “off-Springs” by the millions, it was normal for a poor jobless man to have no fewer than 6-8 children or more, and almost all the children would start some manual labour or the other by the time they were 5 or 6 years old , girl children were murdered even if they could contribute to the family earning, only since they would have to be married off by the time they were 10-12 ( so they would start benefitting a family other than the family were they born ?) .

The difference between a street dog producing puppies by the dozen and a penniless peasant labourer who hardly had food and shelter for his own self also producing in equal numbers might have appalled anyone with even basic intellect , but not an Indian, they just went on and on and on – producing babies pushing India’s population below poverty to alarming levels.

But Indians didn’t seem perturbed, the idle class went about producing babies , the middle class went about working, the rich were corrupting, leaving the Political class gleefully exploiting everything.

Poverty had already become a hugely useful tool for self sustenance in the hands of politicians , who loved it - when the poor remained poor, the illiterate remained illiterate, the docile remained docile and the bonded labour – a term unique to India . Refers to labourers contracted to a landlord as their slaves – remained bonded , severely.

But the irony was none of them – be it the poor, the illiterate or the slaves - ever realised they were bonded, or they were poor and so a Democracy should address their plight and help them lead better lives , the illiterate never knew that they had to become literate , all of them just thought that that’s the way it was supposed to be, no bonded labourer in India ever thinks he has a right for a better life – with no home, no food, no health care, no transport, no electricity, no schools, no roads, no water, no cloths, nothing – the biggest problem of the Indian poor, was they were poor in the head too. Nobody cared, nobody knew what it meant to manage a democracy.

Democracy was just a tool in the hands of a corrupt ruling class to amass wealth, unprecedented wealth.

Accountability and standing up for rights, dreaming and aspiring for a better life was more or less unheard of in the country, most just accepted what was given or what was available, even the rich were as fatalistic as the poor or the middle class – it was a que sera sera, sera feeling all around - the poor living in the vast rural hinterland areas of the country were the worst for their lack of struggle, intellectual struggle. An existential crisis eluded India.

The middle class, essentially rural migrants, were effectively made subservient to everything, since ‘working’ was equivalent to ‘loyalty’ which was equivalent to being ‘fortunate’, so one was expcted to be subservient to the Government or one’s employer which was in turn appreciated as a form equivalent to patriotism.

Brahminism , as opposed to Hinduism, was probably to be blamed to a certain extent, while land reforms brought in these ‘upper class brahmins’ by wagon loads looking for ‘secure’ Government jobs, these ritualistic pseudo vedics also brought in a society that built a ‘aura’ of a guru status for all ‘employers or yajamans’ and a status of  ‘eternal shishyas, naukars’ for all employees.  

Popular movies on those lines only furthered the idea.

The whole thing smacked of a pseudo socialism born out of a very naïve and imbecile political intellect – driven by thinkers who cared nothing for the apparent empirical evidence and preferred grandiose, Quixotic, social schemes which soon deprived a country, already deprived severely, of whatever was left in its economy.   

Conditions extremely ripe for Naxalism and Feudalism to exploit, thrive and eventually crush and trifle the Indian dream.  

Naxalism, a political ‘ism’ unique to India - was a relatively new political dragon with revolutionary ambitions that hid behind the romance of upturning India’s class struggle on its head - but the essential problem with Naxalism was it failed to recognise one fact, it took the success of Mao in China and the perceived power, influence and success of the Marxist Leninist ideology that propelled United Russia to heady heights - in the their eyes and mind- as almost the de facto proof for their own progress and inevitable success – success was taken for granted by the Naxalites. They were so naïve, they thought a few guns and a few armed assaults once a while alone would get them the critical mass to rule India.   

What most Commies , esp. those involved in the Naxal movement failed to comprehend was that these countries that ‘they’ worshipped were not just built by the likes of Mao, Lenin or Stalin through, the now famous ( or infamous whichever way you look at it ) Red March or the Bolshevik revolution, they were blind to the fact that both China and Russia had a huge number of ‘other’ factors going in favor of these Despots that worked in their favour ( not the least being the fact that they were anti Monarchy first, not anti social ) and the fact that these countries already had a large working class that was already urban built on the vanguard of  Two wars, the rural labour class in both China and Russia really had very negligible role in any of these so called uprisings, in fact it may be safe to say that no uprising in world history could have ever occurred ‘purely’ lead by a rural populace, more so if they were illiterate and subject to feudal subjugation ) but that was lost on India’s Naxal clan – so they, the early Naxal movement leaders, fell neatly into the hands of the more powerful political class to exploit them according to their own needs, leaving them with just small pockets of influence.

Feudalism re-emerged with a vengeance, almost every political leader of any substance belonged to one or the other feudal lobby. Probably one of the most unfortunate events for India, because feudalism was almost crushed by a resurgent and fiercely intellectual society that had emerged at the dawn of the century, that had ruthlessly changed many an archaic, incredibly shocking aspects India’s caste and religious bigotry.      

In just 4 decades the country's political system had more or less turned idiotic, falling backwards at a rate of no return, even the most optimistic had no words left to find hope and progress. Governance and bureaucracy had fallen into the clutches of fat, ugly, rich, hypocritical and feudalistic ruling class who found great comfort in hiding behind insipid economic thought that bordered on the pantomime, corruption was at all time high, the political class in fact were having a dream run , since they had a near absolute access to everything - Power, luxury, money and unimaginable control on the masses with negligible accountability.

The country in fact was still emerging from the shadows of an emergency - by the eighties it was more or less clear that the Indian democracy had serious flaws - the political class had become a vicious , corrupt juggernaut - with no stops, no questions. Like the dogs, bitches and pigs of Mettuguda – India and Indians had plunged themselves to openly defecate around Parliament and then war over who would get to eat the shit.

Clans ruled, dynasties re-emerged, governance learnt the art to stifle life, stifle voices. Life at the bottom of the well was hell.

In fact it is very safe to say that most Indians really do not understand the essence of Democracy.  In fact something in the Indian psyche is dead, especially that side that has to stand up and assert for rights, the more one experiences the typical Indian psyche the more you'll find a docile, obedient, insecure and ever fearing slave - every Indian is a born slave, the best slave in the world.

Reasons for such a 'psychological death' isn't far to find - one they are a product of centuries of subjugation, that continues till date, Indians have been never known to be assertive in their culture its a culture that promotes subservience, complete and total and they take pride on it, Democracy was thrust upon India by a few well meaning leaders but then the country never had the likes of Benjamin Franklin or a    Patel who survived to actually teach and educate the Indians certain fundamentals of democracy   you'll find them eking out their living without a whimper under virtually any type of governance - be it fascists, dictatorial, fundamentalist, feudalistic,  

Our noble, non violent country of great thinkers and reformists that the citizens had dreamed off had all but been packed and thrown into a ugly, filthy douche bag. Even normal life was like a rat rummaging through the aftermath of a medieval human massacre. Many a haloed leader who had fought hard to get the country its freedom had been turned into a mere rotting carcass either dead or killed or have evolved into either cynical despots or sycophants desperate to gain preferential public gains at any cost”. 

The situation was compounded by a weak Press, anaemic judiciary, spineless police and a voting class manufactured by the patronage of the political class using money, liquor, sex, rape and murder - as their fuel that they used to push their draconian voting machine to chase and catch hold of poor, rural, illiterate Indians who had no idea about the fundamentals of democracy.

Mohan’s internal voice kept the train of thoughts going.   

For an Indian caste, feudalism and poverty had become manipulative for ones exploitation – both ways - the people belonging to a clas or caste or religion thought they could exploit the government, those governing in turn knew they could throw sops and bones and buy power.

Mohan was almost near his door . His mind too arrived at a partial conclusion.

The educated Urban Indian was probably the greatest “betrayer” of India's fledgling democracy, many simply fled to enjoy the comforts of Dubai, America or Europe, those who could not bail out of the country were insecure, cowardly and spineless hiding behind their so called despise for politics to remain inactive and dumbed out.
Permitting, Allowing  the creation one of the world's most wretched political class ever known to have entered politics, permitting and allowing ‘them’ to usurp power and rule like insipids- insipidus.  

Until one day they, the insipid class knew, it was too late.

They had let the big , bad, fat, rodents out. Free.

And they were eating and chewing the country out with no remorse what so ever.

Mohan rang the bell.    

thesocratespot: XXXVIII James Mohandas Jesudasan

thesocratespot: XXXVIII James Mohandas Jesudasan: James Mohandaas  Jesudasan. He was at the Skylab. Sipping Chai, having a smoke. He had to satisfy himself to sit and be alone, mis...

thesocratespot: XXXVIII James Mohandas Jesudasan

thesocratespot: XXXVIII James Mohandas Jesudasan: James Mohandaas  Jesudasan. He was at the Skylab. Sipping Chai, having a smoke. He had to satisfy himself to sit and be alone, mis...

XXXVIII James Mohandas Jesudasan




James Mohandaas  Jesudasan.

He was at the Skylab. Sipping Chai, having a smoke. He had to satisfy himself to sit and be alone, missing his friends, who had already stepped out for a drink session that he was told Arvind had agreed to sponsor.

At least that’s the news he was given by the - ‘Server’ , ‘Abbas’ -  who regularly served them at Skylab.  

Abbas was 13.

James or Jimmy or Mohan or Anna , people called him by so many names and he too responded to them all.

He too had stepped out late in the evening to walk towards Skylab for the usual rendezvous with friends over tea and cigarettes. He too saw the sky sending out hordes of orange flame clouds chasing after the setting Sun. He too felt a bit circumspect, that Sunday, when he stepped out. He too had to pass through the basthis as he walked with cigarette in hand.

Head bowed down, long hairs flying, a beard waving –an old faded blue jeans, and an equally old khadi kurta, flapping, slow , as he walked.

He was again a typical South Asian guy, 5’8” , a bit dark brown, long hair as was the youth style then ( even if he was a bit older than his actual ‘gang’ he still looked their age, not older ) his hair had a thinner feel, so even if he had long hairs it did not look ominous, it just floated nice and heavy.

James Mohandas Jesudasan was born to a Malayalee father who had a Tamilian Wife from Madurai. 

But, despite his deep rural family background, he was cosmopolitan, well read, well aware and someone whose point of view on almost all things , mattered. To all who he spoke to,

He spoke with authority and knowledge.

Mohan had finished his tea and had stepped out of Skylab to check out how to reach his other friends who had left to catch up on some beer and whiskey, he too ached for a drink.

Just then, he saw a small crowd rushing towards his direction, there was someone running his way, and someone else chasing with inanities in Hindi and Telugu, Mohan soon realised that it was a local rogue who was running towards him and he was being chased by none other Arvind. , Mohan could hear Arvind screaming  – Maakey loudey ! Madarchoth ! Nee Amma ! Naa Tho denguntava ? Loudey key baal ? Nee Amman dengesthaa ra reyy ! the words flew. 

Actually they were just a few of the normal stuff that was spewed at times like these in Hyderabad, so for those who knew it, it was really like sipping tea. 

Arvind’s drunken fury was also being seconded by a few of Mohan’s friends who had also joined Arvind in a mob attack of one poor rogue who seemed alone, defenseless.  

Before Mohan knew what was happening, Arvind was on the guy, and so were many others, beating the hapless rogue like one would beat a dog, Arvind was clearly drunk, and so were most of his gang members, a part of Skylab had stepped to watch the melee but a few remained sipping chai, those staying inside were either inside ‘coz such incidents were not new or they were inside ‘coz they were more ‘decent’.  

Those who were outside were either those who wanted to know if it was any of those they knew who was getting thulped  or to just to watch the act of pseudo masochist sadism. For whatever it was worth.

Mohan, finally thought enough was enough as he watched , he knew the cops would soon be in - he stepped in, kicked the rogue who was in the middle of the whole mob attack to scoot, the scoundrel simply ran for his life making sure he profusely Thanked Mohan before fleeing -  Mohan then restrained Arvind and all the others to calm down by screaming well above their own ‘collective’ voices.

Soon they had stepped once again inside Skylab.

The Radio was still on . It was now Binaca Geeth Mala on Radio Ceylon. Ameen Sayani was going all out giving Indians their count down of the best Hindi film songs.

 They ordered tea for all. 

thesocratespot: XXXVII: Sarsuamma

thesocratespot: XXXVII: Sarsuamma: Sarsuamma was now sitting on one of those aluminium chairs that the men had occupied in the morning, She was relived Daniel was safe, he...

thesocratespot: XXXVII: Sarsuamma

thesocratespot: XXXVII: Sarsuamma: Sarsuamma was now sitting on one of those aluminium chairs that the men had occupied in the morning, She was relived Daniel was safe, he...

thesocratespot: XXXVII: Sarsuamma

thesocratespot: XXXVII: Sarsuamma: Sarsuamma was now sitting on one of those aluminium chairs that the men had occupied in the morning, She was relived Daniel was safe, he...

XXXVII: Sarsuamma



Sarsuamma was now sitting on one of those aluminium chairs that the men had occupied in the morning, She was relived Daniel was safe, he was now sound asleep, Mohan had stepped out, Stella, the eldest daughter was doing her homework, while also keeping a watch on Daniel. 

Sarsu felt relaxed , even her stomach that was carrying her third child seemed a bit conducive to help her relax, She was reading The Hindu, after having just finished the Indian Express’s Sunday Magazine, where she was impressed with an article by O.V. Vijayan. She even liked a critical appraisal of the street plays of Badal Sarkar. 

Sarsuamma made a mental note to pen a letter to the Editor of the IE as well as try and meet Badal Sarkar and OVJ soon.      

As Sarsuamma went about reading through every inch of the newspaper - that’s the way she did it, that was her, she could read newspapers and articles for hours no end - her mind was analysing some startling facts.

India, esp. Urban India was basically made up of a country of the truly poor illiterate class or pusillanimous middle class or a class that can be called as the struggling class made of literate rural migrants, the rich hardly mattered since they were few and they couldn’t care less as to what happened to the country – for that matter any country.  

The rich, globally, can accept anything, by virtue of their state of mind, as long as they could have a status quo - ‘ so for them it was hey! Bring on the Hitler’s, the Mussolini’s, the Idi Amin’s, the Ceausescu’s, the Mao’s or for that matter the Lenin’s and the Stalin’s or even the Indira Gandhi’s, we'll do business with all of them, not for us morality, conscience and all such non sense – the rich would come, pay tributes, put people on the floor to do ‘whatever’ necessary - sweep, mop, polish, contribute handsome funds that each of them could 'sue' for their riots, mass murder pogroms, or secret racial cleansing or whatever.

The rich always had a bigger 'want' which they harvested by selling 'things' that satisfied those middle class 'wants', that way they could help sustain 'that' uncontrollable urge - to be in a position to tell any government ‘Please No Questions asked’  - just protect us, take this protection money, help us from losing our status , as Rich!

Sarsu smirked as these thoughts rushed though her mind. 

And an inner voice continued the debate   

Take the Americans – a voice inside her seemed to talk - its possible to think that the Americans as a Nation suffer from the same syndrome, the syndrome of the global rich. For most American diplomats at least the legacy of a rich America means ignoring a number of shit around. Be it on the ceiling or underneath or across all sides. What matters is an ability to convolute and bring something completely unacceptable to make the cut and then smoothly be ‘Amercanised’ ( at least by the diplomats) and hence all talk of the 4th Amendment becomes mundane talk, for American diplomats outside America.  

America needs the money. No matter what. But, let not the world believe that’s the only motivation.

Maybe they do have something common with the good old feelings of Britannica.

Disagree ?

Ask them, non? No? ask them ?

Ask them - To stand up against Saudi Arabia ? Ask them ? C’mon that’s talking like an anti American?  OK, ask them to stand up openly against the South Africans? What about the African crisis ? Or even the Irish conservatives? Who still think Abortion as sin? Ask any of these American politician? Talk to them on Kashmir? Or Lebanon?  On Afghanistan ?

They will put you through a barrage of words so confusing you would have lost track by the time he/she had finished. America and Americanism – outside America – had become the de-facto standard of the way ‘how a rich society should behave’ – convoluted truth, ignore the passion of a Ben Franklin or a Lincoln or even Roosevelt.

What mattered was the great American ‘Status Quo’- Immunity. Backed by impunity. 

Which was so much close to the feelings of the rich and the gangrenous.  

Ok, Don't believe ? Ask Kurt Waldheim ? The U.N Gen Sec ? Don't be surprised if he was walking around with a suicide note.

Kurt Waldheim.. Kurt Waldheim. Kurt Waldheim. 

Badal Sarkar, Badal Sarkar, Badal Sarkar.

The names echoed inside Sarsu's head. Even as the door bell rang again. As she folded her Sunday News paper. 

So wither Daniel ?

The question hung. As she stepped forward to open the door.

It was Mohan. Looking drunk. 

thesocratespot: Epiphany I - Arvind & Sarsuamma

thesocratespot: Epiphany I - Arvind & Sarsuamma: It was about late in the evening when Arvind finally stepped out again, this time from his house, he had already come out of Mohan and S...

XXXVI : Epiphany I - Arvind & Sarsuamma



It was about late in the evening when Arvind finally stepped out again, this time from his house, he had already come out of Mohan and Sarsu's home late in the afternoon,the little boy Daniel was washed and put to bed after some preventive medication, fortunately they were told by the other boys who brought Daniel in, that the water well into which Daniel fell wasn't really all that deep it just had water that could come up to Daniel's knee and the height from the ground to the well water too wasn't all that high so all in all it was a lucky escape for little Daniel. Once the whole commotion returned to normal almost everyone who had assembled at Mohan's house for a Sunday lunch decided to call off the lunch plan, leaving the family to dedicate their time to take care of Daniel. 

Now as he stepped out, and lit a cigarette, the flame flew out a little bit,  some part of the cigarette ash also flew out due to a sudden gush of wind against him, the flying ash sprinkles were burning and live for a brief instant before blackening out and disappearing, the evening sky above seemed to be quietly courting something more passionate, chasing the receding Sun, it had turned on a large coat of flaming orange split into huge chunks that looked like herds of forest fire, flying in batches, the visual that stretched wide and distant had a number of such large Orange flame clouds moving south west as if trying catch hold of the fast setting Sun, trying to hold and restrain the Sun from going away for the day, the pale blue backdrop above the flaming orange accentuated the canvass like large heaving breasts. 

Arvind took a light drag and slowly exhaled by just contorting a part of the lower side of his jaw to the right side, to allow the smoke through that side of his mouth keeping one part on the opposite side somewhat shut, the action created a skewed whistle shaped mouth that also had his teeth in between- like he was biting the smoke - the smoke sneaked out, slow, lazy, curling a bit as it went up, thinning and spreading out as it whirled out of sight like an invisible paramour joining the orange sky above.    

Arvind arrested his lips to remain open for a while. As the smoke continued its flow, out, real slow and deliberate.

Arvind was a young, upcoming politician, currently seen as a candidate with great promise, belonging to CPI [ ML] , short for Communist Party of India, favoring the Marxist Leninist ideology,  a party that was inspired by a counterpart based in Ireland, the Irish left front, the Communist party of Ireland, both shared a common ideology, their allegiance, to all things that was at the root of the Bolshevik Revolution, a.k.a October Revolution, in Russia under Vladimir Lenin. 

He was a close associate of the then party stalwart Sundaraiya from the days of the Student revolt against Indira Gandhi’s Emergency rule and also following the launch of the All India Co-Ordination Committee of Communist Revolutionaries ( AICCCR), about which we'll talk more later, Arvind was already someone who had a ‘comrade’ base across India, Nepal, Burma, China, Ireland, Eastern Europe and of-Course Russia, by virtue of many of their 'exchange' visits. 

Arvind, had had several cases of criminal nature foisted against him during the days of the Emergency, many of which were later dropped at the end of the Emergency rule and the subsequent political changes that had swept India. As a leader of Students and the youth hailing from the Osmania University and also as the leader of the movement for separate Telengana he had tremendous clout and say in his age group.

He was an idealist. Sharp, argumentative and all out for a revolution. 

He was fair in a very light brownish way, medium height, about 5'7", lean, somewhat , mildly, muscular ( thanks to a little time he managed to spend at a local gym ), he had long, partially curled, black hairs flowing down covering his entire ears, known those days as the hippy cut, his ears were straight and vertical in shape, wide foreheads, thick black eye brows, dog like eyes, fluid white and black with small lashes that could out stare a lot of normal people if called for a 'staring match', he had a slightly thick mustache under a slightly broad yet long, straight nose, that joined a Beegees like long beard that urgently needed some trimming sitting on a on a short but thin neck, one look at Arvind's face would give an overall feel of a youthful rebel written all over it. He had a slouching frame with shoulders that walked with chest up with a straight and broad stride - with the face almost always preferring to walk looking down with a smooth chin up action to push his long hair once a while. 

Arvind would have looked every inch an American College youth if he had stepped into one. Without anyone even suspecting his skin color.   

Actually, if one were to go by just looks and the dress code, he, Arvind, too was as good as a bourgeoisie, that their party derided, he wore jeans, smoked pot, communicated in English, loved American rock and even American films. He wore busted rebel T-shirts that had images from Viet Cong, Che and Bob Marley on the front. This was at a time when India was still not really all that much into T-Shirt. When not wearing a T-shirt, Arvind, preferred a khadi kurta and blue jeans. That he personally worked hard on, to make it look nice and faded. 

He was educated in a rich "English Medium boarding School" near Lonavla, on the outskirts of Poona. 

Most of his friends were already enjoying life in the Americas. But he thought he will remain a friend of Cuba. And a citizen of India.      

He was walking towards what In Hyderabad are known as an Irani Tea Shop , by name 'Skylab' where he was hoping to meet some of his friends and party colleagues for a routine evening chat over tea, biscuits and small onion Samosas - something that Arvind and friends did every evening , these 'tea & smoke parties' as one can call them, were another one of those everyday routines for most of his friends, all of them met ,almost religiously, everyday, over an evening cup of strong Irani tea, some snacks and tobacco or pot smokes if available, sharing jokes, local gossip, sports, movies, politics whatever came to their mind and then exchanging pot - and it was always at the Skylab - rarely at some other Irani Chai joints ( hotels) nearby, Hyderabad was full of them and Hyderabadi youth chose these places to smoke their lungs out, while sipping at least half a dozen cups of the hot, steaming, orangish color, concoction of thick milk and tea leaves made famous by immigrant Iranians, the brew was fondly called " Irani Chai" even if it wasn't the usual 'Chai' that one sipped across India, it was thicker, stronger , brewed longer - incidentally all the Irani tea shop across Hyderabad invariably also had a Cigarette shop attached very next to them where it was common to find young and old standing and smoking and sharing a joke with the Paanwala -  but today as he walked towards the 'Skylab' tea shop, Arvind's mind was a bit in the sink, quietly reflecting on the events at Mohan’s house. 

He was thinking about his feelings of anger when he had rushed towards the Mohan’s door, when he heard the door bell ring like some world war Nazi raid at a Jewish home, even as Sarsu, Mohan , himself and a few other friends who were gathered at Mohan’s place for lunch were having a heated debate on India and Indian Democracy. Sarsu, Mohan's wife and Daniel's Mother was in fact right in the middle of expressing a very aggressive point of view, she would have continued, but was cut short, by the bell. 

He was angry at the intrusion, in fact everyone inside were, it was sudden, unwelcome and very obtrusive. 

The intensity of the knock and the door bell ringing continuously really added to the irritation, almost everyone assembled their thought that the aggressive ring of bell and the frenzied knock was handiwork of those uncivilised Sales boys on a Sunday brunch sales pitch attempt that had become common over weekends, of late, these door to door sales pitches; 

Later when he did open the door he was taken aback at the sight of  rogue boys from the basthi carrying Daniel on their arms, instead, when he had opened the door, being the first one to reach the door.

Arvind continued thinking about the incident, at Mohan’s house, something about the incident kept coming back into his mind , ever since the commotion at Mohan’s house had settled down, he had remained a little shocked, not at the incident itself, which was over and done, but at something else that he was himself not very clear what , but something ‘about’ the day’s events or ‘from’ the day’s event seemed to be bothering him, clawing at him – something abstract, remote, grey.

What Arvind did not know or couldn't place is the abstract feeling that his mind was quietly thinking about, it was about the general sense, actually the lack of it, the feeling of potential hurt upon witnessing scenes that had death or some such tragedy or such other feelings that would have been natural for any human especially those witnessing the Sunday incident that of little Daniel looking totally wet and looking like he was fished out of some real dirty trench somewhere near Mohan’s apartment block and for a brief instance looking almost dead. 

Somewhere at an abstract level Arvind’s mind seemed to have continued analysing the one very critical fact, why was it that he, his mind and his heart have very less feelings of the sort that he would have expected from a normal human in a similar situation? Why was he growing increasingly dumb and numb towards death and other human feelings like empathy or sympathy? when he came across someone else's suffering ? why was it that for him it was more apathy that seemed to dominate him? lately?   

Many of Arvind and people of his age and even beyond were growing numb towards the news of death, or even seeing death, or death like incidents, Arvind for instance had started to observe this feeling ,or the lack of it actually for a while now, not just today, but during a few earlier occasions too, his reactions to human tragedy were ‘impassive’, mild and devoid of emotions, the other day he had read news that a few hundred people died in a rail accident and he hardly felt anything reading it, he might have as well read an article on some boring local event, the feelings were similar, and he wasn’t very happy about that.

There was a growing sense of emotional decadence all around, death, morality, ethics had become words filled with mockery, sarcasm and even ridicule. Even suicides had ceased to pain – like those people from the basthi dancing while taking out a funeral procession, drunk and dancing , a mindless, frenzied dance, to loud ‘theen maar’ drums. While they. the basthi crowd, still seemed to express something, most of the educated urban class across India, were seriously dumbing down, at least at a collective level , if not at the individual level.

Call it the effect of the collective fear of the Government 'post the emergency, the hangover'. 

Or whatever.    

The fact remained. India, had become an Emotional and Intellectual mortuary. Frozen, atrophied. 

A huge section of its youth were being drawn into an unemotional mortuary. Unknown, to them - the youth ie.        

The late morning incident seem to be indicating to him that he, a upcoming politician, was evolving into someone whose only motivation remained impassive manipulation of the social set up around him, all he wanted was to further his own pseudo Marxist ideology, other feelings towards issues that were severely effecting the country, were becoming more and more synthetic, despite when the need was to have youthful politicians like him , who had stood up bravely even during the emergency days to bring in emotions that reflected realism - after all India was facing a crisis so severe in so many different areas. 

Be it, any social or emotional pain, poverty, starvation, exploitation or even death – all that , as an emotion, seemed like feelings and stuff meant only to be put on when needed and then removed.

As he continued walking, cigarette in hand, and lost in thought, Arvind noticed he was passing through a neighborhood basthi, that he crossed everyday, a good number of new temporary shanties were being built - using plastic flex sheets tied to sticks cut out of wild acacia plant shrubs, maybe even tin sheets and asbestos that were used earlier had now become unaffordable Arvind thought, the tent was standing on bare mud with open drainage on all sides - the 'home' was made uglier due to open defecation by children from all around. 

Arvind knew that these were typical colonies that symbolised the life of the poorest of poor from Mettuguda to Rio to Caracas to Nairobi, they were everywhere, he had even seen a few of them during his 'exchange' tours to some of these places, outside India, where extreme poverty existed. 

Where the extreme situation was not just neglected, it was actually exploited.

Across the world. 

By politics and by anyone and everyone.  And today he too had blended into one of them. The blend of the unemotional.  

Be it in Mettuguda or Bombay or Addis Abbaba or anywhere. The tribe of Arvinds were growing. 

Even as the tribe of the great slum swellers also kept expanding, exponentially.

Made of 'illiterate' of the mind and intellect Fathers, Mothers, Sons and Daughters of migrant families from deep inside their country's rural peasantry, coming into cities from remote rural hinterlands, mostly displaced by decisions like building Dams or homeless people hopelessly marooned during floods and subsequently shifted to temporary shelters and then left to fend for themselves eventually having no alternative but to move to the cities or tribal poor whose forest areas were robbed or duped by mining barons and then thrown out or they were naïve farm labourers brought in with a promise of better life by conniving contractors supplying cheap labour, the reasons were as many as the size of the migrant population, very few basthi citizens were immigrants who came well planned, in search of jobs.

Whatever.

While the apathy, the ‘dumbing down’ of most Indians, had become widespread – India , the whole of it, had become a society free of ‘pain, remorse, regret’ – completely and totally - in a very negative sense of the term.

Most migrants living in these squalid tents were poor, unskilled, illiterate displaced people. But, no Indian who witnessed the migration occuring right in fron  of their eyes had any motivation to stand up and do something about the growing cancer. They just walked past, head bent down. Seeing yet not seeing, watching yet not watching. Feeling wretched yet allowing the spread uncaringly.  

These people who filled the basthis were different from the ones who came with better plans. 

Those coming with a planned scheme , in search of jobs etc. were different. Such kinds were limited to the more literate class.  Arvind himself was an example of a literate migrant. His family was basically from a village called old Sironcha located on the Maharashtra side enroute to Nagpur, on the Andhra Pradesh-Maharashtra  border. 

His father had migrated to Hyderabad after passing his SSLC, from the nearby Zilla Parishad High School, he came in search of a job, Arvind’s Grandfather was a Carpenter working in and around Gadchiroli. Their family spoke a language that had a mix of Marathi, Urdu and the telengana dialect.     

His family belonged to a caste called the Padmashalis , a class that once upon a time earned their livelihood by means of Carpentry esp. carpentry work that involved building houses in the good old days that used large amount of wood in its engineering, but now the caste had fallen into a lower economy club since most houses used very little wood,  it was all plastic and Aluminium these days, wood itself being scarce. Their caste belonged to what in India were called as OBC’s , Short for other backward Castes, that enjoyed reservations ( read as government assisted benefits of all kinds – except train and bus reservations they were given preferred treatment for everything else )  into virtually anything everything in India this was an incentive given through a Parliamentary statute to various sections of Indian population commonly known as oppressed class, a class that was once treated as ‘Untouchables”, later given the identity as “harijans” by Gandhi  - Arvind never ceased to be amazed by these economic spirals , the true hidden theory at work, that threw out some haves and made them have not’s and then brought in some have not’s and put them into the category of Haves all of it by sheer accident - so Thanks to the reservation he had managed to complete his Masters in Political Science and Economics from Osmania University ( everyone in the twin Cities of Hyderabad & Secunderabad graduate from Osmania University) even if he had hardly managed to pass through most of his academic years.

Incidentally Arvind's Father was a Union leader at the local Railway Mazdoor Union. By the nature of his father’s work and his actual position , that of a Class IV employee, also known as a ‘D’ Class Government Servant, Arvind and his family would not have been all that endowed. 

But Arvind’s family was somehow quite well to do, he suspected his Father was corrupt. 

Even if he spewed Marx and Working Class rights, he knew his father was a hypocrite capable of quietly betraying all the causes he espoused, Arvind had this suspicion because they seemed to be living a reasonably good life. 

What with his English medium boarding School education, his once in a while trips outside India where he was given decent foreign currency to spend,  and such things. His Father also hinted that Arvind will soon get a job offer from the Railways, a chance that many other common Indians couldn't get into all that easily.   

Arvind’s thought process was again drawn to the environment around him, he couldn’t help but notice one of the tent that he was passing - of just about 4 square feet - he could see the whole setting inside , clearly, despite the fading light , since it had nothing to screen out the inside living area, there was a bluish light inside due to the blue color of the plastic flex sheet on top, giving the tent a very unearthy feel, almost like a crude night club inside a tent, the floor was plain earth , there were children of all ages, including a new born in the arm of a frail women making rotis using a make shift fire from dry twigs with 2 bricks on the side to hold an iron tawa- a pan - Arvind noticed that the mother was using water instead of oil to ensure the rotis did not stick to the tawa, the pan, and the children were swarming all around the woman. One of them a toddler was in her arms even as she was making the bread.

Just outside the tent he also saw a big , fat, dirt laden Pig with several little baby pigs being fed - there must have been at least 7 or 8 baby piglets - some still blind, the little baby pigs were falling over each other to be able reach their mothers breast, the pig looked nearly dead ( Arvind wondered as to why he felt that most of the things he was seeing were seemingly dead) . Flies and ants were moving about her nose, her eyes was shut, her tongue was out , but she was breathing. The irony of the human condition inside the tent and the pig outside was not lost on Arvind, but yet, it really did not ‘move’ him to decide , as a politician, to put together an act to end such squalor. 

Arvind and a few of his politician friends had once visited one these colonies to talk to one of their self appointed leader - a crafty, suspicious looking rogue with black and red tobacco and paan stained teeth, who was always giving out a crooked smile before every word spoken - and it took them no time to soon realise that these temp shanties would soon become their major vote banks provided the shanties were not allowed to be shifted to any other constituency, since then it would be that, the other constituency, that will stand to be benefited with those many extra votes. Most people living in these shanties would do anything for money, even vote for money or report by the hundreds for a political rally on just a promise of free food and alcohol.

It was an easy kill, really. These rally's. India and Indian people came cheap, real cheap, all it took was a promise of about Rs. 5, free travel on a truck, a packet of food and for the restricted few who were responsible to collect the crowd, alcohol. Arvind had sometimes managed close to 50,000 to even 100,000 people for a rally. All it took was putting in place a good logistics plan and accessing the millions of illiterate poor around the several basthis of Hyderabad and Secunderabad.

The participants were trained to clap and whistle and shout slogans as per a pre defined drill. They, the rally crowds, were even trained at arson, riots, burning buses, plundering an office or a railway station - whatever. Nothing was sacrosanct, everything was just a game - pay and provoke and the rest will happen. 

No rally in India was really genuine, peoples, rally. They were all without exception paid. And they were all full of poor, illiterate bastards. 

Educated Indians by nature are cowards, hypocrites - Most educated Indians have been conditioned to look down upon mass protest, of any kind. So they even if India is nucleared out, or destroyed mercilessly, the Indian educated class would simply, find a new country to live. 

Simple. And talk or even preach hatred in whispers while making sure they had access to all the good things - Manipulated Status Quo, at any, any, cost. That's an Indian for you.   

So their party had decided that that they would fight tooth and nail to ensure these shanties 'remained' as they were and they fought even harder not allow anyone try and shift them from their location. 

And that day onwards the party used to send young Politicians like Arvind along with a team regularly into these ‘Basthis’ as they were known. Arvind and his team went in to build a political nexus between the people of the basthi and the party by building youth clubs, reading rooms and also organising ‘bhashans’ by their leaders once a while. The Youth clubs, Reading room etc. were just fronts fro gambling dens that was often funded by the party.

Maintaining status quo was an important element of their strategy when they engaged such basthis. 

Many of the rogues of the basthis could be used to forcibly stamp and dump ‘extra’ votes into the ballot boxes during elections, since most common folks simply detested these elements and avoided them like a plague, besides having no guts to fight them when  found indulging in activities that infringed upon even ‘fundamental rights’ – like ‘voting’ .

Such was the fear, many of these rogues could come, pick a girl from an apartment, rape or molest and still go scot free. The girl’s parents would simply cower and refuse to pursue anything legal, fearing something worse, as a backlash, if they did.

Fucking, Mother fucking, rats. Arvind muttered under his breath. In Telugu. As he drew another drag from another cigarette that he had lit. 

Whither human courage? Whither the courage to stand up and fight ? Whither human dignity, rights and Freedom ?? From fear ??  

C’mon.

He stopped and looked around. He was now near the cross road opposite Skylab. His cigarette had almost neared the end of its butt, it singed him just before he threw it into an open ditch.   

Arvind had realised the inadequacies of the Indian mind right from his days when he was an underground Student leader during the emergency rule of Indira Gandhi. Here it was that the country’s most celebrated freedom fighter's daughter, the daughter of Nehru, India's 1st PM, a man who had given the famous speech ' tryst with destiny' on India's ascension as a free democracy, this woman who was also the longest serving Prime Minister of Independent India, had usurped all Indians of their basic rights, everything that they fought for had been taken away – but out of the zillion Indians, just a few score, or even less, had the fucking guts to stand up and fight and fight real hard.

Of course many who fought - were tortured to death. With no epitaph or a grave. But the educated Indian remained a natural, a coward.  

To Arvind the attitude shown by those more privileged who had permanent shelters just next to these basthis almost adjacent to these temp shanties often was amusing – most of those more privileged were happy exploiting some of these from temp shanties to work in their homes as their domestic maids or servants, none, Arvind thought, none ever took efforts to either protest their presence or try and make the government do something about the level of sanitation or improve their living standards.

Sarsuamma, not even James, was the only exception, She would walk around these colonies, bring some of her Doctor friends and conduct medical camps and almost always try and contribute or develop these unfortunate human fleets.

Sarsuamma was also someone who burned with a passion of a rebel, she had every element of a revolutionary, in the making. 

Arvind stepped into Skylab and ordered a Chai and some 'tie' biscuits. 

Even as he unconsciously viewed the Skylab menu painted on the wall - Dilkhush, Cream Bun, Mirchi Bajji, Veg Puff, Egg Puff, Chicken Puff, Samosa ( small), Samosa (Big) , Biryani, Chai, Spl. Chai, Bournvita, Horlicks... 

The radio at the Hotel was on Vividbharathi. It was Jaymala. And the song requested by about a few hundred Indians and many Army jawans , for whom the radio program was dedicated, was from a film by name Qurbani.

Naseeb Insan ka...  the songs mood wasn't very helpful to elevate Arvind from his soliloquy. 

  

Thursday, July 11, 2013

thesocratespot: XXXV Reality is not perception ?

thesocratespot: XXXV Reality is not perception ?: Annie took in the sounds and energy of London, Bernstein was on his mobile phone talking to the Oxford University administration people...

XXXV Reality is not perception ?




Annie took in the sounds and energy of London, Bernstein was on his mobile phone talking to the Oxford University administration people, they had called, to give him updates and to also to find if everything they had arranged were in place, Annie and the Prof. were already in the car, on their way to The Hilton, as the Hilton car driver, who was incidentally an Indian, focused hard to manoeuvre the vehicle through the lashing rain, somehow the whole set of things happening around her acted like soft mnemonics, taking Annie’s mind to her native village, Buchireddypalem near Nellore, in the State of Andhra Pradesh, back in India, incidentally both her grand parents - both from her Father and her Mother’s side - hailed from the same location, albeit from 2 different villages, separated by just a few score kilometers, both sides of the families owned large tracts of agricultural land, considered the most fertile soil areas in South India, Nellore was located on the eastern bank of the river Pennar. Nellore had a number of things that set it apart from various other parts of Andhra Pradesh, one it was famous for its rich, aggressive, feudal agrarian landlords who had amassed so much tax free money that they not only had virtual stranglehold of the Andhra state’s political fortunes they were also huge migrants to the Americas, quite a few of them eventually became landlords owning big tracts of land in the US too. Annie was too cosmopolitan for many of the migrant Indians, especially the neo rich IT & Software clique, Annie hardly had any Indians in her circle, Daniel was an exception. But then Daniel too had long discarded his Indian identity, both Annie and Daniel wore their identities very loose, they never really bothered about it. Hardly found the need.        

Bernstein had finished his mobile phone conversation, smiled at Annie giving an indication that everything was fine and settled and then he told her that he had included some input on Blake , Coleridge and Wordsworth as a prelude to his presentation today. He then went on to outline the other additions he had made, a few on Aesthetics that included some new research on Edmund Burke, he had even included Annambhatta’s Tarkhasangraha to highlight certain aspects of Asian dialectics, as the Prof went about explaining to Annie, She in turn guessed that her mentor had hardly slept through the journey, She had a strong urge to find out if she had snored but thought against interrupting their ongoing conversation.

Bernstein was convinced that the field of Philosophy could find a huge amount of answers to many of its lasting problems, especially those pertaining to the need to bring a more holistic feel to Philosophy through the study of Literature, Art, Music and folk art in fact at Harvard, Bernstein had even redefined the University’s Philosophy Curriculum by adding a number different genres of art, literature and speculative Sciences as a part of the Masters program at the University. 

Among the reasons why the Prof. found Annie very special as a student and as a research Assistant. Her academic background had an interesting graph, that had a mix of Christian and Hindu archetypes study and then her shifting to a boarding School in Ooty and her later association with the likes of the Max Mueller Bhavan , the Alliance Francaise, her voracious appetite for all sorts of Literature- Indian, English, Russian, Spanish, African - her taste in Music – from Western Classical to Rock and African folk - her interest in Aesthetic art, Quantum Physics and Political economy had all made things perfect for Bernstein to take her into his wing and soon become her admirer – for her sheer energy and free will.       

Annie certainly held huge promise for the field of Philosophy. Harvard was certainly glad to have her with them.

Annie was now discussing with Bernstein the cognitive aspects of the views that were passing them as they drove through the English urban landscape, the images they could see from the frosted car windows, and how, they both viewed each of the images they were seeing; To her the world outside seemed to be rushing backwards like they were caught in a flood or like they were thrown out of an aircraft, to Bernstein the whole thing looked stationary and slow in their motions. Reality and the perception of reality were such contrasting occurrences. Cognition wasn’t a free bird, it was clouded and enslaved by a huge number of factors. Under such complexity how would one derive reality ? two people sitting in the same car, viewing at similar images, almost at the same instant still had starkly differing views of what they saw. Annie knew that f they had a 3rd person sharing the cab that person would have had a completely different view and if they added a child of say 3 years the reality for the child would have been something that the 3 other adults would just not have connected with.  

Annie’s thesis at the Harvard was an attempt to redefine certain aspects of Burke and Kant and the Theory of Human Perception. She was also assisting a few other researchers working on subjects as varied as Dementia and Blind rage and a new theory on certain cognitive dissonances and Personality disorders that had already created a huge buzz in the Philosophy and Psychology circles.

“ So Bernie what do you see ? Are you really seeing ?

No I’m not. Really.         

So Why aren’t you seeing / or are you lying ?

Bernie gave out a smile and turned to face Annie and reply to her taunt  


“Burke had once said that “Infinity has a tendency to fill the mind with a delightful horror" and then connected the idea of ‘Good’ perception to what he had called ‘efficient causes’ but Annie let’s remember that the world has long since lost its symphony , we’ve become so dissonant, what we see as a deluge of visual carcass moving backwards is but a rejection by your unconscious mind of what you see – the dissonance is painful and so wants to quickly discard the visual and seek a new visual and continue to do so until it finds some point to settle’

Annie wasn’t someone to let go of a good argument, so she replied

If what you say is true, Bernie, then the only visual that a human mind would accept without dissonance will be visuals that have nature or those that are close to nature, so do you mean to say that anything man made is dissonant ?  is every human creation factually some kind of a destruction? In essence you are harking back to the days of Plato, Aristotle and maybe the Taliban by rejecting the idea of art as ‘ugly’ ?

She paused, She knew she had him cornered, Bernstein paused before replying, making sure this time he had Annie directly under his piercing gaze –

“Listen, when the surrealists started the talk of Art for Arts’ sake, their treatise of dilettantism and the talk of deliberate destruction of the senses the world of creative protagonists roared their disapproval, condemned Dali and friends calling them Artistic pseudo masochists, they said what they were doing was creative Sodomy, they spent endless volumes to argue and kill the idea of derangement thinking that was the right thing to do but what many of those like Sartre or Camus or Beauvoir or even say Ibsen, who were themselves desolate but I feel they could not accept what was clearly a statement of the end of all things creative, the end of the idea of purity, at least until the world woke up to the likes of Beckett and Kafka , most of us were oblivious, to the fact that the world of true art had already fallen”
    
Bernstein shifted so that he could look at Annie more directly and then continued “ Annie, look around you? do you see purity ? of creation ? anywhere , any place ? what you see are all the creations of a world that only knows ‘art for arts sake’, everything that you see are deliberate creations, the lines, the circles, the angles, nothing out there is pure, and deep inside, your cognitive mind as it evolves , it matures, and develops ‘intuitivity’ , the idea of sublime and the beautiful has by then found a mystique touchstone that’s different from these man made designs and then it starts rejecting everything it sees ”  

Annie waited to assimilate what Bernstein was saying and then looking directly at her mentor said ‘ Sounds so much like the language of the Continental Philosophers, Bernie, is there a world out there that is pre ordained, pre designed ? and is primordiality the only sense of form and aesthetics? Have we been wasting time ? evolving, building ? Annie looked around and indicated the outside world when she said that. Maybe for just taking forward the argument I'll partially accept that existentialism ended up romanticising human ingenuity and the likes of Sartre, Camus or even Beckett and Kafka did not eventually expect Creativity as a pure form of human artistic output to die and in its place put a more synthetic something, that way maybe Nietzsche and Husserl were exceptionally far sighted, but it still is difficult to accept that human cognitive faculties lives and prefers a primordial city and it refuses to accept say an Al Burj tower but would be glad to accept the view of a simple Oak tree and Uncle Sam's barns outside California".

Bernstein nodded, as a signal of his assertion that that's what he meant, mentally acknowledging the brilliance of his student to have so easily assimilated such a complex theory. And then was about to say something more but stopped noticing that Annie had her eyes closed and she was about to say something. Annie opened her eyes and using a softer tone that was almost reflective said -   

“We will need specific analytics that can support such a premise, otherwise it would be rejected as convoluted’ completed Annie even as she admired the brilliance of the premise. Bernie nodded, an indication that he did have something in place, ‘ all we need is to look beyond Russell and Wittgenstein and we’ll get some of what we are looking for’ and gave a smile , Annie laughed, She knew Bernstein was joking. How can you forget the father of Analytics and logic and build a new logic? Absurd she muttered to herself even as she continued smiling. 

Just then the driver said they were nearing the Hotel.

It was like talking music without Beethoven and Bach ! And that’s exactly what she was treated to, as soon as they stepped into the Hilton Hotel.

Annie walked in, the theatre just had a number of dark, unknown heads seated and looking straight on, the stage was lit just right, on the stage they had 2 musicians , Annie guessed, they were Bach and Beethoven standing on either side of their own Orchestra troupe, ready with their batons – all they expected was for Annie to snap her fingers for them to take off. She waited until she was ushered in and shown her seat, she stood straight and without a lapse ‘snapped her finger’ – and the music blew her off from her seat.

Annie frowned at her own little child like imagination, music seemed to have that thing in it, it brought the child in her. She looked around , Englishmen and Women, they loved to live a life that’s well “hidden” she thought as she saw most them talking in hushed tones and walk past with their wooden looks even as the front desk gave them a practiced yet pleasant welcome smile. 

Bach and Beethoven went about with their own overtures. Passacaglia and Fugue in C minor. Rendered by the Royal Philharmonic, supervised by Yehudi Menuhin?

Anyone ?   

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

thesocratespot: XXXIV Oxford & the blue blood of Bernstein

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